Spooning

I feel your arms wrapped around my chest

Your hands firmly grasping my wrists

As you cross and press my arms against me

In a deep embrace while spooning me

Your leg seemingly casually draped over my hip

Pulling me so tightly into you

Until there are no boundaries

No lines of distinction

Just us, and we melt into one

I cannot move; I do not want to move

I feel your fear mixed in with years of love

Many years of love

Millions and millions of years of love

Just so much love

Why do you think you might lose me?

And I know and it hurts

I’ve gone before. I’ve disappeared.

I’m always the ghost who slips away

Always hiding, always running

So that you think I don’t want you or love you

When in truth I am afraid of my vulnerability

How helpless and unworthy I feel

So you hold me so tight and close, and grasp me

Never wanting to let me go

Your breath on the back of my neck

Saying more to me than any words from your lips

This is love. This is real. This has been forever.

This will be forever.

This is the who, what and where we are

To the outside world, it might look alarming

You seem to want to control me and possess me

Never wanting me to be too far away

But you are only trying to protect me from everything

From Everything

But mostly from myself.